Living ~400lbs

… and believe me I am still alive

A Periodic Welcome Post

Welcome!  Hello and thank you for reading this blog.  This post is to explain some things so’s to avoid confusing newbies.

What’s this blog?

I started this blog to have a place to talk about fat acceptance and how my life is and isn’t affected by being very fat.

Do you look like the really fat people used to illustrate stories about overweight folks? 

Yes, even though most fat people are MUCH thinner than I.

Aren’t people your size common these days?

Not really, no.

Are you trying to lose weight?

I’m not trying to manipulate my weight up or down.

Why not?

Because losing weight doesn’t work long-term for most people. Including me.

But what about health issues caused by being fat?

There are no health issues that only fat people have, which makes it hard to believe that losing weight is the only treatment.  And, losing weight doesn’t work long-term for most people. Including me.

Fat acceptance?  Tell me more. 

Fat acceptance, as implied by “fat” and “acceptance” being together like that, is about accepting body diversity instead of focusing on weight loss.  On a societal level it’s about fighting weight discrimination and encouraging lawmakers and public health officials to stop the emphasis on weight.  More info is here.

Do you have a job? You were posting about interviewing.  What’s the story? 

I was “let go”, aka fired, from my software job in October 2010.  I was eligible for unemployment.  I interviewed regularly and took a few programming classes. I also started a temp job with more time commitments, stress and a longer commute in March 2011 and converted to a perm employee in December 2011.  The new job pays me better, I feel more comfortable in the work culture, & it has a more walkable workplace than the old job, so I consider it a win.

What’s the deal with your father? You were posting about him, now you’re not. 

In the summer of 2010 I realized that my father was drinking to excess again and seemed to be having trouble coping with life.  In 2011 I became concerned that he was weakening physically (and in denial).  I called social services to help convince my father he needed help.  He was hospitalized that spring and diagnosed with bladder cancer, dementia, and decreased kidney function.  I took over managing his care, his money, and selling his house.  He died in March 2012. I am still dealing with his estate.  Naturally this involves a lot of stress.

Anything else? 

I’ve lived in or near Seattle, Washington for all my life.  I studied computer science in college and work in software.  I’m white, married, bisexual, middle aged, wear glasses, sleep with a bite guard and CPAP, sunburn easily, and have naturally curly hair.  I drive an 11-year-old Prius.  I play computer games like Freecell, Simcity, and Tropico. I’m an only child and not really close to my birth relatives.  I have asthmasleep apneavitamin B12 and D deficienciessome arthritis in my knees,  “light bladder leakage”, astigmatism, and a history of depression.

8 responses to “A Periodic Welcome Post”

  1. Hi, I’m a longtime reader, though I liked the sum up very much.

    I have a question about sleeping with a bite guard and a CPAP. I’ve had the CPAP for years, in many ways it’s when my life began because it’s the first time I ever sleep through the night, EVER. But I just got a bite guard and I’m worried about the two of them working together. Anyway, I feel better knowing there’s someone else out there who has to deal with the two items so I don’t feel all alone. Did you have problems adjusting to use both a bite guard and a CPAP. Which came first for you?


    1. I had the bite guard first, so I had acclimated to it already. :) The bite guard was easy, the CPAP took a few nights. So if you have the CPAP already working it may not be too bad.

      1. I kept the guard in all night, though I got up a few times. I didn’t love it, it feels so tight, but the dentist said I’d get used to it; we’ll see.

        I loved the CPAP from the first time I used it. No nightmares, it was a different world for me.

        1. Rinsing the bite guard in hot water can make it more comfortable to insert. If you have pain in your jaw be sure to call the dentist.

  2. Funny that the last question was about that! I was just gonna ask you – have you had any trouble with tongue thrusting and the bite guard/cpap? I’m having some irritating issues!

    1. I’ve had less tongue thrust issues with the bite guard and CPAP, but that’s me…. My bite guard is fitted to my TOP teeth, and my thrust is primarily on my top teeth.

      What I’ve really noticed with the CPAP is fewer cavities, because the CPAP nasal mask means I breath through my nose. Previously I’d breathe through my mouth since my nose would routinely clog when I lay down. The CPAP airflow, its built-in air filter, and my allergy treatment all work to enable me to breathe through my nose at night :)

  3. FWIW I thought I had mild sleep apnea but I actually have a gluten sensitivity. Not a gluten allergy per se, but a friend was diagnosed with celiac a few years ago and whenever I ate dinner with her I breathed much easier and slept better. I told my doctor so she tested me for it and I do have certain food sensitivities that affect my sinuses. I don’t need to outright avoid anything but cutting down on whole wheat and processed foods made a huge difference. Our grocery bill has doubled and cooking takes alot longer with fresh ingredients but it’s worth it to breathe better and now that I’m retired I have the time. My husband sleeps better too and he’s amazed how quietly I sleep. I also take medication for a thyroid condition that looking back on it might have one reason I’ve always been very fat. Life would be simpler if I didn’t weigh over 400 pounds but despite some challenges life is good so maybe it’s all for the best.

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Former software tester, now retired heart patient having fun and working on building endurance and strength. See also About page.

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