Living ~400lbs

… and believe me I am still alive


I’m not sure when I realized that yes, maintaining a regular schedule is GOOD FOR ME, if only because it helps me sleep regularly. Adrenaline does not automatically kick in to cover for lack of sleep now — perhaps it’s getting older?

But anyway. Regular schedules. Regular sleep is good. Regular schedules also means I take my asthma meds regularly (even more important when I have a cold) and, oh yes, my antidepressants.

Regular meals is also good. This spring, with my dad in the hospital and later a nursing home (all as I was starting a temp job after a stint of unemployment) I wasn’t exactly eating regularly: Too much to do, not enough time to think about it, and I definitely didn’t want to take the time to plan meals ahead of time. Lately I’ve taken an idea from The Fat Nutritionist and set an alarm on my phone to remind me to eat lunch. (The man of the house usually puts dinner in front of me, and breakfast I more or less grab automatically.)

It seems both incredibly mundane and incredibly frustrating to me to realize that my life works better with structure. It feels like too much structure to me. I want to be free to do what I want, to be able to make evening plans on the spur of the moment instead of “Oh, dinner’s in the crockpot and will be overdone if I stop for dinner near work.”

But, y’know, I’m over 40. Maybe one of these days I should grow up or something.

2 responses to “Reality”

  1. I have a problem with my sleep routine. There is a routine, just that the hours of it are crap (i.e. not your average 11pm til 8am (or whatever) deal).

  2. Well, it helps to make plans to make structure work FOR you rather than be a straightjacket.

    I don’t think it’s about being old, either. I think that structure is good for humans in general. It put things that don’t DESERVE the expensive conscious effort of thought on automatic to free up the brain to work on the important stuff.

    I’m a huge believer in routine, and I wasn’t always. But now that I have an incredibly inconsistent schedule (within certain parameters), I find that creating a “frame”, if you will, for the incredibly varying “pictures” of my day lets me do my day without going nuts.

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Former software tester, now retired heart patient having fun and working on building endurance and strength. See also About page.

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