A comment for Treat Weight First? that I did not approve, but found striking for its ability to completely misunderstand, was:
There must be some powerful drugs in that koolaid you’re drinking. You admit you are morbidly obese, you have multiple health problems directly related to obesity, yet you shun the doctors that are trying to help you and others like you to lose weight. Amazing!
I repeat: cause fatigue, muscle loss, and weight gain.
What I haven’t posting about is that it’s been TWO MONTHS since the test that confirmed I’m deficient in human growth hormone — and I haven’t started treatment yet.
(Why? Combine a rare condition with an expensive, injectable drug treatment and you get fun “Who’s on First?” times with the doctor, insurer, pharmacy, and the drug manufacturer. I am not thrilled to have the drug manufacturer’s help line in my cellphone contact list. On the other hand, I do have the drug manufacturer’s help line in my cellphone contact list.)
Because I try to be a good patient, I read up on this new condition. It has fun, familiar symptoms like:
- A higher level of body fat, especially around the waist (Like the 30lbs I gained since my dad died? Or the 50lbs between 97 and 2001? Or, er, my entire life?)
- Anxiety and Depression (I didn’t have a problem with anxiety until about 4 years ago. Uh…)
- Fatigue (So, not just hypothyroid?)
- Feelings of being isolated from other people (So…not just getting older and less patient?)
- Greater sensitivity to heat and cold (So… not just getting older or hypothyroid?)
- Less muscle (lean body mass) (Yeah, my weight lifting hasn’t had results it used to, it’s harder to build muscle…)
- Less strength, stamina and ability to exercise without taking a rest (Like how I could walk a mile a few years ago and now I need to rest after a couple blocks? YES IT’S VERY NICE TO KNOW WHY.)
And a symptom that’s very, very scary for me: hypothyroid can cause impaired memory.
So let’s go back to that “koolaid” I’m drinking. And about how weight loss is going to “help” me. Because weight loss will obviously fix the “obesity-related” health problems I have. Except, wait — those hormonal deficiencies are “obesity-related” in terms of “people who have this tend to be fat”, not “caused by fat”. And they’re screwing up my life.
- Weight loss isn’t going to fix hormone deficiencies.
- Weight loss drugs won’t fix hormone deficiencies.
- Weight loss surgery won’t fix hormone deficiencies.
If I were to lose weight without treating those hormone deficiencies? My quality of life would not be improved. FUCK THAT. Or, to be precise I am going to continue to focus on improving my HEALTH. Because THAT will improve my life.
(How RUDE to put MY priorities first!)
And if, in the course of improving my quality of life — things like restoring my former energy levels (horrors!) and my former stamina (eek!) and regrow my muscle mass (Aack!) and reduce my anxiety and depression (gasp!) — I may end up losing some weight? That’s up to my body.