Living ~400lbs

… and believe me I am still alive


  • Tell Me Again How It’s “For My Own Good”

    Lara Frater wrote about this and I wanted to boost the signal.  The Rudd Center recently came out with a study (PDF link) showing that weight stigma affects the stress hormone cortisol. Exposure to weight-stigmatizing stimuli was associated with greater cortisol reactivity among lean and overweight women. These findings highlight the potentially harmful physiological consequences of exposure to weight stigma.… Continue reading

  • Things to Read

    You may have seen this poor as folk post on why poor people might not eat healthy.   There’s also a great post on why “healthy food vs junk food” infographics are inaccurate, misleading lies. From Linda Bacon and Lucy Aphramor at the the Health At Every Size® Blog: “Obesity-related” disease actually tracks your social status… Continue reading

  • Five Things Make A Post

    1) I am sooo looking forward to tomorrow morning, when Mark Reads will post the second-to-last chapter of Deadline.   Mark Reads reviews books a chapter at a time, progressing through books every other weekday, and it’s been building to this OMG HUGE second-to-last chapter for weeks.  (Need I say “spoilers”?) Some of the books he’s… Continue reading

  • Medical Things

    Those following along on twitter know that I went to the Urgent Care near work to deal with a UTI. This, of course, brought up the “Seeing the doctor issues”. Fortunately the actual appointment went well, with no weight fight. Then it was off to the pharmacy.  The nice part was that the UTI pain… Continue reading

  • Game of Thrones Season 2 Leaked

    If you are a Game of Thrones fan it may interest you to know that season 2 has been leaked in great detail. According to “[n]otorious author George R. R. Martin has immediately taken credit for the leaked information becoming public.”  Tor also quotes “an unnamed HBO exec” as saying “Reading is for people who want to… Continue reading

  • Doctors, Doctors, Doctors

    One of the things I expected in dealing with my father’s medical odyssey was “weight talks” or fat shaming — not of him, but of me.  You know, the “Well, you should take care of yourself by being thin” talk.   It actually hasn’t happened.  I think it’s partly because the patient weighs 175lbs and partly that… Continue reading

  • Five Things Makes a Post

    New job! I have a new job.  The place I was temping hired me in late December.  I’m not doing exactly the same job, which is both “new and scary” and “cool and interesting”.   It’s also been interesting to note that the things I was looking forward to ending with the contract (the commute,… Continue reading

  • Thankful Thursday

    [an occasional exercise in gratitude] Things appear to be getting into “routine” with the parent, instead of “crisis-to-crisis”. I’ve also been able to cross some major tasks off my list, and more are in sight. Adding more tasks to my to-do list (managing the parent’s mail and bills, coordinating his care, etc) is making me focus… Continue reading

  • What’s Important?

    My mother was fat, though she lost weight shortly before she died.  My father, by contrast, was always thin and muscular.  Yes, he drank like the Navy seaman he’d been and smoked 1-2 packs a day, but he was strong and healthy.  He gained some weight when he retired and quit smoking, but not much.… Continue reading

  • Thankful Thursday

    [An occasional exercise in gratitude.] At the moment I’m thankful for: My temp gig is continuing to go fairly well. My father is doing better. I got over my “but things can’t get better” thinking and saw my ARNP about my anxiety, insomnia, and depression symptoms.  My ARNP prescribed Celexa (for depression) and Ambien (for… Continue reading

  • QOTD: Nutrition, exercise, and sleep

    It’s a stressful time in my household. Both I and the man of the house have temp gigs after months of unemployment.  A relative is ill, needs to move to an assisted living situation, and I’m organizing most of it.   The to-do list is long and getting longer. But I need to take care… Continue reading

  • Things That’s Up

    New job is going well.   It’s my first completely non-managerial job in years.  Even when I was a “department of one” I was was still doing a lot of project / process management. I’m enjoying just doing things. I also like this “getting paid” thing.  ;) My commute is about an hour each way, sometimes… Continue reading

  • Feeling Like A “Bad” Fatty

    I haven’t been exercising.  I spent most of the weekend sitting or laying down. Sometimes I’d be breathing hard from the effort of sitting (compared to laying down).  Sunday I was so exhausted I literally laid down and cried. I’ve got a cold, which does not combine well with asthma.  Plus I was helping run… Continue reading

  • Things I Would Like To Not Care About

    I would like to not worry about: Whether a medical professional will consider my symptoms before making a diagnosis. Whether a job interviewer will not hire me because I’m fat. Whether the friend talking about her diet is doing so as a way of passive-aggressively commenting on my body size, eating habits, or perceived dieting… Continue reading

  • Thankful Thursday

    I think it’s time to do this again.  See, my job was eliminated.  Not fun, but I’m at the stage now where I’m thankful it happened, because: 1) Much less stress.  The old job was changing and had become a bad fit, and now it’s OVER. 2) I qualify for unemployment. 3) …also, we have… Continue reading

  • Dieting Changes How Bodies React To Stress?

    At least that’s what seems to happen in mice.  As summarized in US News and World Report, Shaving calories triggers molecular changes in the brain that make mice more susceptible to stress and binge eating long after the diet ends, researchers report in the Dec. 1 Journal of Neuroscience. The finding could explain part of… Continue reading

  • Poverty’s Link to Diabetes

    [C]onventional wisdom about Type 2 diabetes would suggest that once obesity, lack of physical activity and other lifestyle risk factors were taken into account, diabetes incidence rates would even out between lower- and higher-income groups…. [A recent study found that] for men, being in the lowest-income category (earning less than $15,000 per year), doubles the… Continue reading

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Former software tester, now retired heart patient having fun and working on building endurance and strength. See also About page.

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