Category: Me
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Semi-Random Update
3 comments on Semi-Random UpdateI am sitting naked on my couch, wrapped in an afghan. “Breakfast” this morning was a banana, 2 butterflake rolls, and a glass of diet Pepsi. My temp job is taking huge amounts of my time. I will likely be working some today, for example. More permanent positions may be added in my group. I have given my grandboss my resume. The last few months I’ve been…
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Not Doing Everything
Unvirtuous Abbey (“Digital monks praying for people with first world problems”) tweeted this week: For those who have to carry the burden of what they see but are limited in what they can do, we pray. That … says a lot, actually. For many of us worldwide media means that we see much more than we can act upon. So many causes. So much suffering. So much. Toss in…
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Interviews, Interviews
I’ve been getting more job interviews lately. Researching the companies I’m interviewing at and other interview prep is taking a fair amount of time. One place I interviewed at Monday has called to arrange a second round next week, which is a hopeful sign. I am still not getting full lung function, but albuterol, Mucinex, and the humidifier are helping. Doing an aerobics tape in the…
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Thoughts on the solstice
North star guide my love to me Through times spent in good company Smouldering eyes around the fire With stories tall and spirits higher … Stoke the fire up bright and strong Verse to verse and song to song The day grows shorter by the hour Close the circle Feel the power Winter solstice tends to touch me stronger than summer. I’m grateful to both, since…
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Tweet Tweet Tweet
Yes, I’m now on Twitter. I’m tweeting about fat stuff and with fat people. I’m also currently participating in #MooreAndMe, though hopefully that will end soon. Also thanks to Twitter I discovered Sweet Machine has a blog. And a “Get Out Of Diet Free” card. …and yes, “tweet tweet tweet” started an earworm in my head. So here it is.
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Thankful Thursday
I think it’s time to do this again. See, my job was eliminated. Not fun, but I’m at the stage now where I’m thankful it happened, because: 1) Much less stress. The old job was changing and had become a bad fit, and now it’s OVER. 2) I qualify for unemployment. 3) …also, we have money saved. I’m touching wood as I type this, but we’re okay…
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Exercise and Reinforcing Spirals
I’ve written about my mother being self-conscious about her fat. Afraid of other people thinking she was fat, afraid of not being able to walk far enough, of not being able to find a chair that fit, of being unable to defend herself if physically attacked. Mom was also self-conscious of being out of shape and having an “ignorant-sounding” accent.* Mom broke her leg when I was…
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A year or two ago …
Two years ago, I wrote 2 of the most-read posts of this blog: on stress incontinence and jock itch. I worked hard on both of those posts. I was a bit embarrassed to admit they were problems I deal with, but I also felt that writing a bad post on either would be worse than not writing them at all. Take of that what you will….…
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Thankful Thursday
[a not-always-weekly exercise in gratitude] It’s Thursday and I’m thankful for: I’m getting better at exercising regularly. It’s having results in terms of feeling stronger & being able to do more physically. The rain is watering the yard for me. One less item on the to-do list :) …and the roses are still blooming. Fresh strawberries and shortbread with tea this afternoon. Decadence! A friend posted a link…
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Thankful Thursday
[a not-always-weekly exercise in gratitude] Being reminded I live in a Futuristic Sci-Fi World. My desk at work is now closer to a window. Something about “getting some natural light” is nice. Being able to take some time during the day to stretch. Fresh strawberries… Celebrating my 10th wedding anniversary this week with the man of the house. :)
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So, um, hi. How’s your weekend?
At the moment I’m in a fullish coffeehouse listening to Vixy & Tony perform Seanan McGuire‘s Wicked Girls Saving Ourselves :) I have the remains of my mocha and just finished an openfaced pesto-and-cheddar sandwich. Earlier I went to the Seattle Sounders game downtown. Since the man of the house works a little less than a mile from the stadium we can save on parking costs by…
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Mother’s Day
As the Mother’s Day ads have passed, I am relieved to say that it wasn’t a hassle. If anything, I alternated between vague feeling of “It’s not my problem” and “I don’t have to do anything”. If you don’t already know: I am not a mother; my mother is dead; my grandmothers are dead. I did not have to do anything for this holiday, and in fact…
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Depression
Major depression is when a person has five or more symptoms of depression for at least 2 weeks: Agitation, restlessness, and irritability Dramatic change in appetite, often with weight gain or loss Extreme difficulty concentrating Fatigue and lack of energy Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness Feelings of worthlessness, self-hate, and inappropriate guilt Inactivity and withdrawal from usual activities, a loss of interest or pleasure in activities that…
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What’s Up With You?
Hi y’all. Feel like it’s been a while since I had a real post. So. Still here. Still fat. What’s changed: Started walking again. The hip pain I referenced about 10 days ago? Still here. Still decreasing, thank heavens, but still here. I took nearly two weeks off from walking every day. I have begun doing very short walks again, and have continued to do leg lifts…
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Thankful Thursday
1) Walking is much better; been leaving the cane in the car most of the time. 2) Fun evening exploring Microsoft’s private “mall” one afternoon with a friend. 3) Getting better at prioritizing and being gentle with myself. 4) My office seems much warmer since I got back from vacation. It’s nice not to HAVE to bundle up in multiple layers every day! If this keeps…
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Time for what?
This year I was able to take off one day a week from work in December, along with the time between Christmas and New Year’s. Which means this is my first full work week in over a month. I happened to run across this last night, in Kathleen Norris’ book The Cloister Walk: In our culture, time can seem like an enemy: it chew us up and…
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