Living ~400lbs

… and believe me I am still alive

February 2010

  • Bras, Exercise and Other Body Vagaries

    My 44DDD Lilyette #908 (also known as Cortland #7101) bras were getting worn and riding up the back.  Riding up the back usually means the band is too long, but as they were also visibly worn I figured I just needed non-stretched-out ones.  My Elomis are fitting better, but the underwires come right up to my… Continue reading

  • Friday Plans

    I have tickets to see Jonathan Coulton tonight!  :) Most of his stuff is fun or satiric or both, but I do have a special fondness for this bouncy tune. Heck, it’s in my “walking” playlist on my iPod. Lyrics are here. This song was inspired by an issue of PopSci magazine on “The Future… Continue reading

  • Depression

    Major depression is when a person has five or more symptoms of depression for at least 2 weeks: Agitation, restlessness, and irritability Dramatic change in appetite, often with weight gain or loss Extreme difficulty concentrating Fatigue and lack of energy Feelings of hopelessness and helplessness Feelings of worthlessness, self-hate, and inappropriate guilt Inactivity and withdrawal… Continue reading

  • Thankful Thursday

    [a not-always-weekly exercise in gratitude] 1) Shared laughter and delight. 2) A friend dropping off Seanan McGuire’s new book, A Local Habitation. 3) I’m continuing to go for short walks every day, supplemented with leg lifts and extra stairs.  It’s not getting easier fast, but it’s not getting harder, either. 4) Amazon had chocolate-covered cashewson sale.… Continue reading

  • Confession

    I am dependent on food.*  I truly believe that I need food to continue living.** Further, despite weighing 401lbs (yes, I own a scale) I eat every day.  Even multiple times a day.*** Oh: and I think eating food when I’m hungry is a healthy and normal thing.  Bwah!  Clearly I am the destroyer of… Continue reading

  • Virtual Window Shopping: Big On Batik

    [Looking at supersize / extended size clothing which is to say, clothing I can wear.  Preferably modeled by fat people.] Big On Batik has lots of yummy things on sale, including their sweetheart top,  scoop tee, and handkerchief top — not to mention dresses and Hawaiian-style shirts. Big On Batik has been an internet store catering to… Continue reading

  • Quote of the Day: Fat Acceptance Made Exercise Easier

    One of the things I like exploding people’s heads with is the fact that embracing FA made it *easier* for me to exercise. Before, exercise was always this horrible, dreary thing I “had” to do so that I’d be “thin,” and if I didn’t get “thin” I was failing, which made me not want to… Continue reading

  • Musical Interlude: The Girl That’s Never Been

    This is just a song I really enjoy.   “No-one’s sane behind their mask.” Vixy & Tony mostly perform in the Seattle area, but also travel to various Scifi cons. This song’s lyrics are here. Continue reading

  • Is it fat or lack of exercise?

    Lately I’ve felt like the “Maybe you want to exercise?” fairy.  People muse about aches, lack of energy,  difficulty walking, and wonder if it’s weight or just aging…. And I pop in with, “Are you sure it’s not lack of exercise?” Please understand, I’m not actually trying to make people crazy.   See, I’ve weighed over 350lbs… Continue reading

  • Virtual Window Shopping: Hourglass, Apple, Pineapple, Pear…

    Shades of Right Fit Jeans!  Junonia has come out with a series of sport pants in 4 different cuts, in sizes 1X to 6X, and 3 different lengths.  Nice, eh? Well…sort of.  You see, they’re not giving any custom sizing for them — just talking about cut in the description.  Has it perhaps not occurred… Continue reading

  • Thankful Thursday

    [a not-always-weekly exercise in gratitude] 1)  I did one of my shorter walking routes at work yesterday.  A little over a third of a mile, but longer than I walked yesterday and Tuesday.  Kept reminding myself to keep my stride short (long strides irritate my hip) and that I’m supposed to be easing back into… Continue reading

  • Flying While 400lbs

    I wasn’t going to write about Kevin Smith being bumped for fatness because I felt like I’d written enough already on airline stuff.  But I’ve been contributing to the Kevin Smith thread at Shapely Prose.  Then tonight I wrote up a huge long comment on my airline experiences at We Are The Real Deal and … it’s… Continue reading

  • What’s Up With You?

    Hi y’all. Feel like it’s been a while since I had a real post. So. Still here. Still fat. What’s changed: Started walking again. The hip pain I referenced about 10 days ago?  Still here.  Still decreasing, thank heavens, but still here.  I took nearly two weeks off from walking every day.  I have begun… Continue reading

  • Happy President’s Day!

    As American holidays go, President’s Day isn’t as frequently observed as, oh, Thanksgiving.   But I do get the day off, and I am definitely enjoying the 3-day weekend. Whether you’re at home or work, I thought something to laugh about might be good.  So here is Tom Smith singing his song “Spoiler Alert” (lyrics).… Continue reading

  • Friday Fluff

    Okay, y’all, this week has been depressing. First Michelle Obama wants to make fat kids thin through the magic of exercise.   Then the media asserts that deaths from alcoholic liver disease are due to childhood obesity and talks about diet and exercise for kids as if it’s never been done before and all of… Continue reading

  • Question: On Dating While Fat

    This was originally from (yes, I signed up there too) but I thought worth putting out here too, since much of it applies to anyone. You have said that you’re bisexual. Do you have any sex or dating advice for a young gay fat woman? One thing I got from a friend many years… Continue reading

  • Disney World

    As hinted yesterday, my November vacation was Disney World! For a week! Yes, it was fantastic.  We stayed at Port Orleans French Quarter, visited in-laws, did Mission: Space, Soarin’, ate Moroccan food, laughed at Ellen & Bill Nye, geeked out at Spaceship Earth, loved Big Thunder Mountain and Test Track, enjoyed lunch with an Imagineer, and… Continue reading

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Former software tester, now retired heart patient having fun and working on building endurance and strength. See also About page.

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